12/20/14

You Happy?

This post is just an iPhone dump. Let's be real about it.

But I do feel like it allows me to update our life in a quick way.


Geddy has been all about Dinosaurs lately. He still loves his cars but scary dinosaurs or dragons are his jam. His favorite thing to do is have them "fight" each other. It's super cute to watch.


Sometimes, Geddy wants to hold my hand. And it's my favorite thing. This was one of those times where he wanted to hold hands while he watched a show. I finally thought to take a picture of it because I never want to forget it.

Geddy has also started this new thing where he will say "Mom! You happy?". It's the cutest thing. Or if he sees me crying (which happens from time to time. HORMONES) he will say "you sad, Mama?". It's very endearing and makes me melt. Although, he has started asking if I am happy when he is in trouble as a distraction. And it's a pretty dang good distraction, I must say. Ha!


Lady Pup is 100% sass, all the time. That's all that needs to be said.


This is me taking a look away selfie. "What are you lookin' at Hil?". I don't even know.


While out for a walk the other day, Geddy saw a random bike laying on the grass and sat down next to it and explored it a bit. 


This was a 19 week baby bump. Feelin' a little chub but it's all good.

Happy Saturday!

Hil

12/18/14

It's a Girl and A Name!

Little Baby Girl

So, I am over a week late on this but we found out the gender of baby #2 and it is a girl!

This pregnancy has been completely different from my first and I always had a thought that it was a girl but then I would immediately doubt myself because I am married to a de Lisle man (the de Lisle family produces very few females, it's the truth). So, when we went in to get it checked we were both equally elated and shocked.

I should have trusted my Mother's intuition. I am 2/2! With Geddy, I knew within weeks of finding out I was pregnant that he was a boy. I could feel it in my bones. I am sure it sounds so silly but I just felt specific ways with both.

This pregnancy I have been so much sicker. I suppose that wives tale of baby girls making you sicker was true for me this time. I need so much sleep in order to function and still get nauseous at night (but I do feel SO much better now that I am into the 2nd trimester). Also, I get headaches often and just recently, I have become ridiculously emotional. Holy cow. Poor Chad.

Food is still a little "iffy". Better but not completely back to normal. I've also been carrying this baby differently. With Geddy, he grew straight out of me but this little lady has been more side to side and out so I feel more lumpy and chubby rather than pregnant. But don't you worry, I have plenty of time to get huge!

While pregnant with our Little Dude, I had terrible anxiety in my second trimester. Earlier this year, you'll recall that I started taking medication to assist with that and this pregnancy has been quite a bit better. I will say that the last week it has peeked a bit and been more noticeable but I am aware of it and it hasn't been nearly as severe. I think it's just all the hormones during pregnancy that makes me go a little bit crazy. I am really grateful that the medication has helped so much though. Modern medicine can be such an incredible blessing.

Our baby girl is looking healthy and measuring well. She was moving so much that the ultrasound tech had to take a lot of time measuring everything and checking her. She was shocked by how much she was moving. But, she confirmed twice that this baby is NOT a boy and has the correct lady parts so, we feel really quite confident about it. She also expressed a slight concern because my placenta is right next to my C-Section scar (ohhhhhh Gregory, you will be my demise) and so we have to keep an eye on that because if it doesn't move than I will need to go and see a specialist Doctor for the delivery. But she wasn't overly worried, she felt very confident that it will "pull up" by the time we get to the point of delivery. At 28 weeks, they will do another ultra sound to check the placenta's location and we will go from there.

It has taken a while to realize that we are, in fact, having a baby girl. I can't honestly say that it hasn't completely set in. I think once we start fixing up the nursery and buying baby clothes it will seem more real.

And speaking of baby girl clothes: I was at H&M getting a hoodie for Geddy and I thought I would meander over to the girl's section and was IMMEDIATELY overwhelmed. I actually love dressing little boys and feel more comfortable doing that because everything was pink and glittery and had hearts and stars and I almost panicked a bit. I had to get out of there. The super girly stuff isn't really my taste, I know what a waste, right? But I personally don't tend to dress that way (I dress more like a dude, haha) and so I have to find what I like for a little girl. I already have an idea for her nursery and it's definitely not your standard girly room. Not that there is anything wrong with those things they just aren't really me. And until this child can let me know what SHE likes, I will just be going with what I like. But I want her to be able to choose for herself once she can.

Having a girl is incredibly intimidating to me. Chad and I have discussed it multiple times and we both feel the same way about how we don't want her to be raised with the ideology of the world, particularly the media. I am truly a feminist at heart, I want my baby girl to be raised knowing that she can do anything she puts her mind to and that her personal value isn't based on how perfect she looks or how thin she can get. There is so much negative pressure on girls in this day and age and that terrifies me.

I want her to have self respect and know that knowledge is power and that she can play with army guys or barbies or whatever. It's so scary though because the outside pressures are EVERYWHERE. Disney Channel, Movies, Books, Facebook, Instagram, Youtube...I just want our positive influence to carry more weight than the outside world. I could go on and on and on about all the things I want her to know and being her amazing little self but I will stop the feminist rant for now.

And don't get me wrong, my fears are the same for Geddy and I don't think that boys have things easier, I know there are many pressures and challenges on any child. It's funny because during this pregnancy, I have become SOOOO tender for that little boy. I was telling Chad about how worried I was about Geddy not being the only child anymore and not getting enough of my attention when I have a needy newborn and that he wouldn't feel loved anymore (yes, that was the anxiety talking, I am sure of it) and he had to laugh and say "We are going to love both our kids the exact same amount, I promise". He has quoted that multiple times since then. Haha, I am such a worrier. Even writing this post all about our girl makes me feel guilty for not talking about Geddy. Haha, I am crazy, it's fine.

Lastly, we had a name picked out for both genders before we knew the gender. That's just how Chad and I do things. Haha. And I have contemplated telling people what her name is or if I would rather wait until she arrives but we have already told a lot of family and close friends so, why not announce it.

Her name will be (drum roll please):

Scout Ivy de Lisle 

Scout is after the little girl in "To Kill a Mocking Bird". Chad and I both love literature and that book is obviously amazing.

Ivy is after my Father's Mother. I never met her and didn't get to know her personally but I know she was a wonderful writer and creator and was loving and kind.

And one of the first things I bought for her was a pair of Moccs that she will get for Christmas!


So yeah, there you have it. We are having a baby girl and I feel so blessed to be able to be a Mother again. It's such an incredible journey and it's scary, hard, and joyous all at once.

Happy Thursday!

Hil

11/25/14

Halloween 2014!

I LOVE Halloween. It brings back such fond memories of being a kid and the excitement of dressing up and trick-or-treating. And it has a renewed sense of fun now that I have a child who is beginning to enjoy its delight. 

Geddy has been loving all things spooky for a month or two. He loves dragons, skeletons, black cats, spiders, jack-o-lanterns, witches, monsters; anything that makes you feel a tiny bit scared. Because of this new found love, Halloween was a real hit for this little dude. 

Each year, I have made Geddy's Halloween costumes the day of. The first year he was an Old Man and last year he was a Lumberjack. Both times I have been pleasantly surprised with the outcome. Well, this year was no different. We just took items that we already had and made another costume. 

This time, Geddy was....

A Biker!


Chad's Mom bought Geddy this authentic Harley Davidson Biker jacket and it was just too cool not to use. We threw a bandana on with some boots and a mustache and voila, we had a biker!

But can we talk about the fact that everyone (more like the older generation) thought he was a pirate. What kind of pirate wears a leather biker jacket?! Come on!

We weren't really mad and stopped correcting people after a while. It's all good. We knew what he was and he looked super cool too.

This was only half of the people who were at the party. The rest came after this pic was taken. 

My Mom and Dad threw a Halloween party for the grandkids the week before. They are so cute. They had fun games like Bobbing for Apples and eating donuts from a string and Pin the Nose on the Ghost. Then we all went for a walk around their neighborhood because the neighbors get really into decorating for the Holiday. At the end, we made carmel apples. My Dad told ghost stories after that but we had to head home because Geddy needed to go to bed and I was still really nauseous from being pregnant.

Chad dressed up as a Burglar this year and I did an easy black cat. It's a go to for Halloween. Wear all black, throw on some cat ears and whiskers and you're good to go.

My Mom was the cutest of us all though. She is so fun and extra sweet with the Grandkids.


This year was the first time we went trick-or-treating with Geddy. Because we live in a large apartment complex, we decided to head to my Mom and Dad's neighborhood to do the trick-or-treating. Their neighborhood is really settled and we knew that people would be home and expecting little trick-or-treaters. We started at my parent's house. Geddy was so confused at first because my Dad came to the door with a huge bowl of candy. Geddy's little hand quivered with excitement as he picked a candy, he kept changing his mind as to what kind he wanted until he decided a sucker was the way to go (he immediately asked me to open it for him). 

He loved the "black cats" on his bucket.

We only trick-or-treated for about a half hour and it was perfectly long enough but not too long. It was also before it got dark so it worked out wonderfully. By the end, he was really good at saying "thank you" and saying "trick-or-treat" himself. We would tell him to "knock on the door" each time so he would say "knocky door?" after each house because he wanted to keep going. It melted our hearts for sure.

After we had our fun, we headed home and Geddy immediately wanted to check out his loot. So we dumped his bucket on the floor and he made us open every single bit of candy. I am of the mentality of letting kids eat as much candy as they want on Halloween night. Let them get their fill and then the day after ration it appropriately. With Geddy, he wanted to see what was in all the wrappers but actually ate very little of it. He had 2 suckers (opened at the same time, one in each hand) and that kept him very happy. He didn't finish either of them. I came to find out that he isn't super fond of chocolate stuff. Sadly, I was so sick from the pregnancy that I couldn't enjoy them either. So rude.

After he was done looking at his candy, we tossed it and he wandered off with his suckers for a bit. Then we got ready for bed and he went to sleep. It was great because he didn't even think about the candy the next day which was good.



This Halloween was hugely successful. Chad and I felt like we did a good job as parents to try and make it fun, even while I was so nauseous.

I hope you all had a superb Halloween as well!

Happy Monday!

Hil

11/21/14

Geddy Boy is Growin' Up


This post is dedicated strictly to our little dude. Homeboy is growing up fast and I need to do better documenting it. All the pictures are from my phone and so they aren't great quality but, they are cute.

First of all, Geddy is talking up a STORM. He is starting to say more sentences and loves to talk about spooky things. Like black cats, witches, monsters, spiders, skeletons, anything that is kinda spooky. He loved Halloween because he got to see everyone's fun decorations. Each weekend, when Chad lets Geddy out of his room first thing in the morning, Geddy says "Yay, you did it!" to Chad as if Chad had accomplished something really big. He is just too funny. He will also fake burp and say "scuse me!" over and over again. At least he is being polite, right?


For Halloween, I dressed up as a black cat. So I did simple whiskers and a little black nose with eyeliner on my face. Geddy thought it was the best thing he had ever seen. It left a huge impact on him. I only did it once but every time he sees me put on makeup now, he asks to be a kitty cat. So, I will put a couple whiskers on his face and he loves it. Except for on Sunday, I tell him we don't wear costumes to church. It's just the cutest thing. It's funny what things little kids remember.


Geddy got his second haircut last week. His hair had grown out into a very strange bowl-like-hairstyle. It was not very flattering and even if I combed it, it looked pretty wonky. I took him to the salon by myself and was slightly nervous about how he would do because the first time wasn't super calm (he ended up sitting on Chad's lap because he was so upset). I am happy to announce that Geddy did GREAT. He didn't cry at all and was super brave and sat in the cool airplane chair all by himself. He got nervous at first but the lady did an awesome job with him and he was such a big boy. Plus, his haircut is fresh to death. He looks sharp and SUPER old. Love him .


Naps are a complete thing in the past. And quiet time hasn't been super successful or regular either. I have started to kind of embrace that fact and some days are easier than others. But, I am lucky that Geddy sleeps from about 7pm-7am every night. The other day, we decided to go to Barbacoa after Chad got off work so we packed us all up in the car and headed out. It was a totally normal day but Geddy fell asleep in the car. We thought "let's just let him sleep for 10 minutes and then he'll wake up when we get out of the car". We got out of the car and he was still ZONKED. We ordered our food while Chad held him and Chad suggested we try and grab our thick blanket that we keep in the car and put it down on the bench where we were sitting so he could lay there. I figured it was worth a try but strongly doubted that he would continue sleeping, that would be a joke but sleep he did! He slept for a good 45 minutes! We were blown away. Of all the days he decides to nap, it's on a day where we are out to dinner. Kids are the funniest of creatures.


This was a picture from the other day. It was a day where we were both just done. Done with each other, done with being home, just done. Am we the only ones who have those kind of days? We were waiting for Daddy to get home and I caught Geddy watching his iPad like this. He had ripped off all the couch cushions and it was just amazing. What a stud.

Well, there is a small update on our tiniest wonder.

Happy Friday!

Hil

11/20/14

17 Week Update With Baby #2


Hiya! I am feeling real guilty about how little I have been documenting this pregnancy. But lets be honest, it's hard to take a picture each week when I am getting ready like 2 days out of the week. It's just reality peeps. Girlfriend wears sweats and no makeup most days. I know, judge all you want.

So here is a picture from 14 weeks! Isn't it fun? I will say the thing that I have noticed the most with my body changing is my belly button. It is becoming more and more shallow. Usually it is a dark hole where you can't see the bottom but now it is much more shallow and it feels different. I know, super weird but it's the truth.

I am sleeping okay. I get up at least once a night to pee but the problem is that once I wake up, the pregnancy insomnia kicks in and it takes like an hour for me to fall back asleep and before I know it, Geddy is waking up at 7 am. I have also noticed how tired I am. I need like 10 hours of sleep a night to feel like I have any energy at all. And let's talk about how hard 10 hours of sleep is to come by with an (almost) 3 year old. It's interesting indeed. So, I nap when Chad is home sometimes or Geddy watches a movie while Mama tries to get some extra Z's. Yep, it's what has to happen.

My all day morning sickness has improved but STILL isn't completely gone. Now I get nauseous just at night after dinner. Every. Single. Day. It's crazy because how I feel now is how I felt when I was pregnant with the little dude during the first trimester. The sickness went away right at 13 weeks with our Geddy boy but this time, it is LINGERING. But, I have to say just how grateful I am to have improved as much as it has. I am able to get things done during the day and can really act as a Mama and Wife much better now. But poor Chad hears me moan on the couch every night just feeling queazy and gross. Oh well. It really could be much worse. I am just grateful to be pregnant.

Oh and let's talk about the fact that I lost 12 POUNDS in the first trimester. Hahaha, it makes me laugh because I am not a person who struggles to keep weight on. Girlfriend could afford to lose a few pounds but it was a shock to hear the doctor tell me that. I will say that the morning sickness was FOR REAL this time around and so the fact that I lost a bit was kind of a good thing. I started off a bit chubby which I am totally okay to admit.

I have felt the baby kick once. It was such a grand feeling. Once it happened, I immediately recognized what it was and it took me back to why I actually enjoyed my first pregnancy so much. Those kicks are so sweet to me.

I had to go to my allergy specialist again because my asthma has been a real problem the last 2 weeks. It would wake me up at night and I was having to use my emergency inhaler waaaaay too often. So, I got on a new inhaler (safe for pregnancy) that I take daily and it has helped immensely. Both my Ob/Gyn and Allergy Doctor made it very clear that "you need to get your asthma under control because if you don't get enough oxygen, neither does the baby". I was feeling stressed about being on more meds while pregnant but was quickly humbled by the docs. And, my asthma has improved DRASTICALLY. Hoorah!

Now being officially in my 2nd trimester, I am also really relieved to say that my anxiety levels have been really good. With my first pregnancy I struggled a lot with anxiety, especially in my 2nd trimester. I continue to take my anxiety meds as directed by my docs and am really grateful that I have felt so good. Such a big relief.

We find out the gender on December 8th. YOU GUYS, that's in like 2 weeks! Can you believe it? It came so quickly. Although this week, I have been feeling like it's a million weeks away. I can tell I am really getting into the nesting stage. I want to get that nursery ready PRONTO but don't want to start until I know the gender. I did the same thing with Geddy's pregnancy, the nursery was constantly on my mind and I was so excited to get started. Chad and I both have a feeling about what the gender is but I keep doubting myself. Haha. With Geddy, I knew from the first trimester that it was a boy. No question. This time around I feel more hesitant. We will see. I just can't wait to know.

So, that's where we are at right now. My tummy is slowly growing bigger and bigger. I will try and take more pictures of the tummy. But I can't promise too much. Haha.

Happy Thursday!

Hil

10/15/14

Sometimes, it's tough.

That last 6 weeks have been brutal. I am still struggling with morning sickness. Last week it was at it's worst and then I had 2 days that were pretty darn good and then I was sick all yesterday and vomiting.

You win, fetus, you win.

Amongst the nausea I have also had an overwhelming thought of:

"what are you doing?! you can't manage another baby!!!!"

I know, I am a big pansy but having another new born is really scary. The business of newborns are the scariest stage for me. It's such a challenge. I wish I was one of those women who bounced back and handled the lack of sleep with such grace but I will be first to admit that I am just not that lady. It's brutally hard for me (and I am sure other women relate).

But I had a moment today as I was wrestling Geddy down for "naptime" (aka quiet time that only lasts about 20 minutes). I had finally persuaded him to come sit on my lap instead of kicking the door screaming (naptime is fun at our house). I was singing him the usual primary songs and he sang along with me. He has been doing that quite a bit lately. He sings loud and almost completely monotone but it's just so sweet.

And it was a tender mercy. It was a moment in life when things aren't super easy but I thought to myself:

"at least we have that going for us!"

Geddy had heard these primary songs enough times that he could sing along with them. And he and I could feel peace about everything.

Sometimes, I feel like I am super unprepared for what life throws our way. But this quote settled my nerves nicely. We're all just figuring this whole life out, right?


Happy Wednesday!

Hil

10/1/14

It's October!

I have written it a million times but I LOVE FALL! I will shout it from the roof tops. There is something seriously magical about the cooler weather and the thought of Halloween and baked goodies and gaining winter weight (haha).

Am I the only one who feels this way?

It's funny because I myself don't even trick or treat anymore (being WAY over the age of appropriateness) but Halloween really brings back memories of being young and eating loads of candy and watching Halloween movies. It's such a wonderful time of the year.

And Halloween kids books! Danielle from Sometimes Sweet has Holiday books for specific seasons that she showcases during the specific Holiday. I absolutely LOVE the idea but realized I don't have any Holiday specific books. But wouldn't it be super fun to start collecting them and then making them part of your Holiday Decor? Like Christmas and Thanksgiving and Valentines Day. OH MY. I am loving it.

From Danielle's Instagram. So cute!

And do you remember book fairs in Elementary School?! Holy crap, those were the best. I think they happen this time of year as well. I remember I would collect the little plastic book marks (the ones with the little tab at the top so you could hook it to the page you were on), I had like 16 of them and thought I was so cool. Did you know that if I could have any job in the world, it would be an Elementary School Librarian. It would be so awesome.

I wanted all the bookmarks. 

Where am I actually going with this post? I have no idea really. I just love Fall and I needed to express it.

So yeah, I am super pumped it's October. It's a wonderful time of the year. I want to eat a bowl of candy and read a book because that just seems fitting.

So tell me, what are some of your favorite kids Halloween books? One of mine was The Witch Who Was Afraid of Witches. We had that book growing up and I loved it. Tell me what other ones are good.


And let's talk about the last minute Halloween Costumes Geddy has had. I throw the costumes together the morning of. I have actually been pleasantly surprised with the outcome! It'll be interesting to see what happens this year, I have an idea of what to do but we'll see how it turns out. 

Geddy's first Halloween as an Old Man. 
Last year as a Lumberjack. 

Lastly, Geddy was invited to go to one of his Best Friend's (Winston) Birthday celebration. We went to the Heber Creeper and got to ride the old train. Geddy absolutely LOVED it. He loved being with his friends and getting to ride a train was a huge deal. They also had violinists or fiddlists (I don't really know which or if it's they're the same) and he was obsessed. He couldn't get enough of the music. It was a super fun night indeed. Plus we got to eat cupcakes on the train!

With Daddy in front of the train. 
Riding the train and loving it!

So we love Fall and that's all I wanted to say.

Happy Wednesday!

Hil